Monday, October 3, 2011

A Few Things

Coming across a Firefly marathon when you are already up too late is a dangerous thing, even if you own the series on dvd and can watch it whenever you want. There is just something about finding it on tv, kind of like hearing your favorite song on the radio. It's way better than just playing a cd.

I guess I am alone on the bra thing. Well my sister was in with me, but it can't just be us, or we'll just be the weird Fields girls, so it looks like I am stuck with a bra until I can get a boob job and then they will just stay nice and perky without pesky support.

I had a wave of nausea hit me like a ton of bricks at three this afternoon. Can you get morning sickness this soon? I hope so, because I don't want to just have the lame flu or something equally miserable. If I am going to suffer, I best be creating life. I didn't think the emotions of infertility would come back so fast this time around. After taking over two years to get pregnant the first time, I thought I would be more patient, but no, you don't go back to step one, you go right back to where you left off.

I so badly want to be one of those people who start feeling a little tired and then wonder to themselves, "Huh? When was my last period? I wonder if I'm pregnant." and then get to be surprised when they take the test. Instead I am armed with ovulation predictors, a calendar, supplements, thermometers and a host of interesting methods to debate about trying if this goes on too long and like I said, the worse part is the waiting...

I have two friends that got pregnant this month from invitro and while I hope I never have to go that route, I am jealous of how quickly they get to find out if it worked or not. Seriously, it was like a week and a half. I'm kind of torn, now that I let the cat out of the bag that we are trying again. You see, I also always wanted to be one of those people who hid their pregnancy as long as possible, to see how long it took for people to notice. My family all lives out of town, so how fun would it be to show up 32 weeks pregnant to some random vacation. Anyway, once I have people hoping and praying for me, I feel a little bad about letting them continue if I know I am pregnant. That's why I just blogged it an hour after I found out last time. We'll have to see what I decide this time, but if I am anywhere as sick as I was the first time around, I don't think it will take you too long to guess.

Wyoming was fun. It was good to get away. I usually have about a two month max of staying in one spot, before I need to travel and it had been four months since my last trip. Gasp! It was needed... a nice country detox. The only problem is, Wyoming did not get the memo that it is Fall. 90 degrees, October 1st in Wyoming, the devil you say! We got back yesterday and discovered Utah hasn't gotten the memo either, but I hear Wednesday should be nice. Whohoo! I'll post pictures of the trip soon.


Jessica Rudder said...

It can too just be us. We can be the weird Fields girls and we'll rock it so much that everyone else will cry in the face of our awesomeness. Or they'll cry because I jabbed them with a sharp, pointy stick for laughing. Either way, there will be tears.

By the way, I looked it up and you can be queasy almost immediately because your hormones start building up fast.

Also, I don't mind if you keep it a secret from everyone else. Just don't keep it secret from me because I like to know the secrets, not NOT know the secrets, ya dig?

As for the thermometers and calendars and what not, I say throw it all out and just get busy twice a day, every day until the magic happens. However, I don't know nothin' about birthin' no babies, so, you may want to ignore my advice.

Bickham Family said...

I love your post and I am all for the no bra, lets get back to what we all really look like BUT there are bound to be those exceptions- you know the genetic anomolly woman who DOES still like perky and huge. At least with bras, we can always take comfort in saying to ourselves either a) good bra or b) total boob job. Inerfertility sucks, even when you don't face it, when you are ready to be pregnant, you wanted it yesterday. BUT... word from Jen- number two was the worst for a variety of reasons. Mainly because she was always looking at her first wondering if she would ever have a sibling. Sooo, not that it helped but you're totally justified! I love you and miss you!


Candice said...

Oh how I hope it is not a cold.

Being in the middle of the ovulation predicting, waiting and trying...for the last year, I totally understand. I am not much more patient than the first two times we did this.

I am excited to hear about your pregnancy the hour after you find out. You and Bear make beautiful babies.

Scott and Stacia said...

That will be exciting. Keep us posted. As far as the the thermometers, kits, calendars, I understand those just stress us out. Apparently one cant get pregnant under stress?? Just continue to be stress free, however possible, when you are trying to conceive.

IrisLillie said...
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IrisLillie said...

You are Soooo right.. it is GREAT not to tell anyone your pregnant and then show up one week before the baby is due. Had a whole lot of grandparent upset at me flying in... he he he he